i can’t believe how fast things change. it seems like just yesterday i was so scared to grow up and now i can’t wait. not like i just want to move out. more like i want to be smart and i just want college to hurry up and be over. i want to get married. i want kids. i want a family.

but idk i guess not everything changes, i am still scared of one thing…………brennen james. i love him so much. i mean i know i once thought i loved ismael but god i was dumb then. and i guess i mean i did love him as much as i knew what love was. but with brennen its so different when i with him i’m happy so so unbelievelby happy but when i’m not all i want to be is with him. and i know we fight sometimes but that doesnt change anything i honestly hope to god that i grow old with him. and really that’s what scares me. that something somewhere is going to go wrong and i’m going to lose him. but i guess for now i’ll just be happy he is in my life and wish for the best! :)