so i blew off my grandparents for school and work. i feel like shit. then i blew off work for food and work. i feel even more like shit. i call brennen to make me feel better and i mess up and say something stupud yet again and now i feel like shit to the third power. and now i have to go to work and put on my happy face and pretend everything is alright. even though it’s not. i hate this.

i hate fighting with brennen. and idk like i get to a point where i’m over it and ready to admoit iakm wrong and be happy but brennen always feel bad forever which makes me feel even worse for making him feel like that. i hate it all so much. eff. anyways i gotta go work now. oh joy!